Rewards To Recovery

Dear Dana,

This is a letter that you are writing to yourself. To always remember the self love that you have found, and that you may always get back on track.

As I lay awake in my bed tonight, my thoughts seem to wonder thru so many things.

But the one that takes up so much space and time is my love affair with God. Sounds strange you say, but that is what it’s like. I feel that this is the way it should be. I am married first to God, then my husband. Yet at the same time, I feel a sense of freedom that I have never experienced before. All kinds of emotions that feel good for a change. It is like a journey thru mountains. With all their peaks and valleys. Like chapters in a book. Maybe I will write a book, probably not but I now know I have a choice. That is the wonder of recovery, at least my own personal one. The freedom to live my life happy, I do not mean all of the time, but much of the time. I have also come to know that there is an end to my feelings of sadness and my fears. Our God gives me the courage to face my fears and I provide the strength. For I now know that God only helps those who help themselves.

I could go on for eternity about everything that my new life has shown me. It may a take a lifetime, but heaven wouldn’t be such an awful place to end up.

Thank you CoDA

Love and Prayers

Dana D. (2000)