RECOVERY

 

HAVING SPENT YEARS AVOIDING MYSELF CHASING NEVER ENDING THREADS OF IMAGINARY DREAMS, I HAVE LEARNT HOW TO EXIST DETACHED FROM TRUTH. TO KNOW, TO UNDERSTAND, FEELS LIKE I'M FIGHTING WITH MYSELF TO OWN THE RIGHT TO BE, JUST BE.  I'VE LEARNT THE SKILLS THAT DENY AND SUPPRESS, BECOME SO DETACHED FAR SIMPLER TO ABANDON SELF IN PLACE OF ANOTHER AND LIVE A LIFE THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE.

THE HARDEST PART IS LISTENING TO THE SILENCE AND HEARING WHAT IT SAYS. THIS IS ME, SOMEWHERE THROUGH INVISIBILITY I TAKE FORM.  SOMEWHERE LOST TO MY SENSES I MAKE MYSELF KNOWN AND CALL OUT TO BE HEARD, THEN BREAK THROUGH MY DECEPTION AND IMAGINARY DAY.

 

Jo P16/07/04